When fairytale turns to reality..

2011-12-28T16:13:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah..today is our 3yrs 10mnths..
For all those hardships ive gone thru,
For all those times i hang on to this love,
For all those times he sacrificed just to be with me,
Everything is now worthwhile.
Thanks allah for e happiness ive gain now.
Just hoping for me n u , my dear bbyboi, that we're gonna last long till e very end.
Insyallah!

2011-12-20T10:56:00.001+08:00

It's been awhile hasnt it?..hahas..
Nothing much to talk about though..
Okay picturesss...as usual..:D

The day we grow fat together, watched movie and just lepak all day long..

Ayg's bro & sis wedding!

When ayg sees this picture, he goes...'ehk mcm kte plak yg kahwin eh'.huhu..i sukeee.<3

my bbygerl and her hubby!

BLURR! =((
More pictures but eqa still have yet to upload more of it :(
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Ok guess what? Nisa got into the same sch as me..k best. The last we met was like when she fetched me from ite bishan?? LOL. thnx to wan and ayg, our frenship is still tight.

Company dinner which is yesterday!! Awesome much! We were supposed to give ridiculous presents and i swear we're laughing our ass off like shitt.

More pictures.....--->FB!

2011-11-25T16:19:00.001+08:00

Currently at work, selit-ing some time to updte since weekends will be occupied with school. Later school ! Wa piang lei! *bang head on table* :( Sometimes, i just dont feel like going to sch anymore. I just hate the topic they're teaching now. Bout some computer thing..more like something any other guy should learn. Just so not my type! Sch is BORED! But my peeps are superrrrr gerek!! *sighhh.
Whats more its the raining season. So at times, will be coming in class late pasal ayg will take some time to send me there. Tu yang lagyyy buat aku malas nak masok klaz kalau da termiss mins of what the lecturer said.
So semakin menjadi jadi la minggu ni coz ayg got one week off!! Pegi balek pegi balek, muker dier je sorang ku pandang! Chey! hahaha . I sukeeee! Makin ngade2 aku kene pampered by aygku! Hahs. But thats the way it should be right ladies! It's only right that they pamper and treat us the best that they could without complaining. Thats when u'll know if he really loves you.
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Hopefully i wont feel regret in days time for cutting my fringe! =/

HE is the BEST thing ive ever had! HE makes everything seems perfect.

2011-11-13T15:25:00.001+08:00

BOO!!
Updating again since yest alr over and done with exams! 4 down and 3 more to go!! Like finally???
Time flew so fast when im busy working, studying, and spending time with bbylove.
Im so nervous about almost everythng. Exams results especially. And when i met my ayg..i still feel butterflies. Hahas kental pe aku.
Loving hym more as days passed by! I just know that he's the one. insyallah he will be the one. My one and only till the future comes till forever.
So where do i start? Picturessssss.
The day he came to clinic right after hys guard duty and he stayed up till 12pm to test me on my exams. How can i not love hym right? :) So adorable.

So one of those days, applied for leave. Went ayg hse in the morn and bought brkfast frm afghan. Then hys mom and bro left for jb. Left the 3 of us including adikcik. Without me myself realising, i fall asleepp. Woke up 11+.. just left me and ayg. Went out buy lunch sambil movie marathon..4+ pm left for our date. 9+pm, went to watch ayg's friend play soccer.
Plus the rest are all leftover pics.

2011-10-25T14:09:00.002+08:00

BOO!
Back to my last post!!
Ayg sungguh irritating ! Thought dapat take bus nan dier tauw, check2 tron motor da baek !! waliaooo.
But oklaaa, not bad . End work at 10..dear cat called up then we melepak la skejap. How sweet of them, belikan bthday pwesent! kecohhh gilerr ble da lamer tak jmpe my future cousin in law ni. hahs .

Arnd 11..headed home after wan came to fetch eqa darling.
Sat..sch whole day 10-5..at night, dinner wf fam and cuzzies. Babyboi guard duty lagy.zZzzzz!
Sun was another whole surprise !! Masyallah..may allah bless all my cousins who make it happening !!<3
Mon, which was yest..my kaplan gerls surprise me! Almost wanna teared up, bt maintain eh..maintain ! hahaha ! its only like 3mnths of knowing one another and they're like the closest to my heart..the best supportive friends ever. Didnt get to meet bby again psl guard duty :(
Because last wk sucks like f*&^ psl mtr bdh dier tu and he sacrifice one day tak g guard duty :((( ya allah . stress tauw tak dpt jmpe. nevermind..patiently waiting to meet hym. nak huggy2 ! LOL.
Days before bthday, celebrate wf bbyboi.pergi dating..tgk wayang.. weee... i suke !! cant wait nk berdating again in a few days soon!! wuhuuuuu!

LOVE MY HUBBY SO MUCH !!

2011-10-21T20:27:00.003+08:00

I wonder who has been visiting and reading my blog...cuz everytime i go in, there'll be like 100+ visits..i wonder whooooooo.... hmm..
And i wonder if there's still ppl out there hating my rltnshp with azrul and maseh nk kpo2 nak tawu how's our love like. hoho..oh well... -.- Dun worry, we're doing super fine, in fact, GREAT, AWESOME :) thnx for the concern.
But for those who are happy for me, thnk u very the muchyyyy. May allah bless with you with ur loved ones.
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Days has never been better . First and foremost, it does suck pasal mtr ayg saket, masok hsptl. Probably besok dpt klua. Big boss ku smlm kawin..kasi hangbao case $99. Kocek pun kosong derr gytu macam. So clinic closed at 230pm. Cabbed to vicom to meet ayg...3jam kiter duduk pandang each other, pandang motor, sampai la hujan turun. Nasib woii tak lebat..masyallah. haha. Planned tgk wyg kat lido..Real Steel takde la pulak. So we watched at orchard instead. Naek train la sey. Best pe???! HAHA. The last we took train together was 2yrs ago ! Oh wait, i think once during ite times jgk . Smpai cathay, real steel fully booked when we actually arrived super early! -.- So terpakse tgk jelar paranormal activity 3..since the last we watched paranormal activity 2 pun was last yr with ayg's friends. Tgk punyer tgk..malam ku tak boleh tdo..psl bf ku irritating. HAHA ! Ade je kacau biler tgh tgk tu cite.
Nari sweetheart took mc..so i cant wait to bus-ed home with hym. Huahua. ya allah sungguh la best dpt cuddle2. hahas . Naek mtr stakat peluk dier je all the way la kan..so tkde excitement. Haha..*gatal
K BYE :D

2011-10-20T13:45:00.001+08:00

AZRUL is superrrrrr ROMANTIC.

Despite years being together,

we're still so loving towards each other which makes me love him more !

<3<3<3

2011-09-25T21:37:00.002+08:00

If i didn’t cntct hys friend, i don’t think he will be ableto cntct me either. If hys friend doesn’t have my number, he wouldn’t be ableto take my number secretly from hys friend’s phone. If I’d stick to my words,we wouldn’t be lovers till now.

So thankfully, im glad tat everything happened. But is thisfate or....what?
Im thankful i used to contact hys friend, im thankful he took my number ,txtedme n finally am in contact with hym. But is this all a crush? Or feelings thatjust grew without us knowing?

I remembered saying ‘we can contact bt as frens only k..cuzim attached’ . So first thing first, did i really mean it because i truly lovemy ex..or for the sake of saving the rltnshp just because we’ve been 2getherfor 3 long years?.. Futhermore, he agreed because he was also attached at thatpoint of time.

First time otp with hym, lying on e bed tersengehsengeh..playing2 my hair. Why ah i did that when im alr attached?

But as days goes by, i think la eh we feeling2 single lagaknye. Y AH ??? Y ah we meet up? Y did he kiss me on our 2^nd meetwhile i was still otp wf ex. Y am i so cruel ? Y did our txt turn out to belovey dovey syg2 ? Y did he always fetch me from sch ? Y did all those happen ?Y must we hold hand in e first place ?SURPRISINGLY, y did we ask for brkup with our ex-es on e wkend itself..butseriously that’s coincidental..! Y everything happen so fast ?

I used to think...whyyyyyyyy ! After all , I guess our lovegrew much faster then we thought. Having crushes with each other foryears, is so hard to control . Maybe,thats e reason why..when we get e chance of being together, we don’t wanna letit slip away.

It feels like a fairytale..where the princess finally meetsher prince charming. However, honeymoon period has past..and along the way thislove journey , turned to hatred..to confusion. But we get a hang of it, and nowwe’re like forever in a honeymoon period.

The first time u hold my hand, u touch my face, u kissed mycheeks..i just want more of it. U nvr knew how irresistible u were. How much imbeginning to want u more. How badly i want things to be forever and always. Before,Im just a normal gerl, living a normal life living in a typical hdb flat,having a normal bf.. But since the day u enter my life n till now, i feel so sospecial..being treated like a princess with a perfect bf by my side..gets crazywf me,laugh wf me, cry wf me, sing wf me. Sometimes aku blh jady giler lynknprngai giler azrul . But i cant stop myself...he’s de best !! When he’s on mymind, suddenly my fon will vibrates. Its either a call or txt from hym..like heknow gytu im over here thinking of hym. Hehh .

Oh bummer, so yesterday after hys stupid have to stay-in incamp, he followed hys frens raya-ing . So so upset okay me !! =( we planneddays back alr..da plan nak kai white..skali bad news he can only go back homeon sat afternn . like knnccb!!! Seriously ! da tu tkpe..so i go sch as usualbecause initially, thot of skipping..half way in the mrt, pitam ! Ya allah..akuda terhuyung hayang..i swear i feel like dying.thankfully my dear kakak wasthere and thnx to e ppl who gave up their sit for me. Ppl must have thought impregnant..wf my hand on my stomach, wf my cramp face, wf me feeling like vomitting=S Sumpah i very paisey but i cant bebothered by it. My legs feel like jelly beans, i cant bear to stand. I canteven walk properly even when kakak hold my hand all the way. Irritatingly, dasmpai somerset..i decided to cab-ed home. Waste my $15 ! =(( I really dunnoewhat happened to me yesterday. It was a such a fucked up day . With stupidcramps, stupid teeth giving me problems which i think im gonna extract it soon,and the sickening headaches ! Went home, *boom*..terlantar kat atas katil inpain while curling up like a baby. At night, fever. Hais..why ahhhhh ? =((

But Alhamdulillah now feel soo much better . Wf ayg being there,i feel the more i have to get well soon. Sorry eh lau bace tak btl siket wf my eng n mlayu campur..hentam jelaa . haha.

All pictures back before pause, during pause and afterpuaseeeee.

2011-09-19T12:55:00.000+08:00

BOO !
and again one mnth ltr im updating my blog . huahua !

Its funny how so many thngs happen..so many thngs to share but i cant find the right words to sum it all up. Basically life's like a roller coaster..thankfully azrul's by my side always. Been meeting everyday except for hys guard duty's days. Sehari tak jmpe, mcm sethn! =,=

Our convo that happened few days back when we met at night..
hym; u, smlm i nmpk ****. dier ngn mataer dier..patotla i tgk asl dier asyik puseng blkng byk kali .
me; *piat hys telinge..oh tgk **** la ni?? sape suro u tgk dier?
hym; *he burst out laughing. abeh pmpn tgk i. i tk tgk pmpn.
me; then hw u noe dier tgk u if u tk tgk dier! u tgk dier tusal !!
hym; *cont laughing...eee beh jealous.
me; tak uh . tak jealous..u imagine if i terserempak *** eh..
hym; ala u cnfm peluk dier.u kn gatal
me; *smack hym..eee! cemburu u lagy terok sia !!!
LOL . and we cont to laugh our ass off.

okie..so thats bout it la yer . haha . gbr2 sme da posted at fb . but will posted here again e day i play my lappy .
:)

2011-08-19T10:16:00.001+08:00

BOO !!
K sumpah i got no time to updte my blog.
Since my clinic no patients at all..then i shall have a short updte then back to revising for exams !
IDK why but im supaaaaa excited for exams. Probably because all the topics they taught for this term, ive learnt it before in ite.

Im gonna go berserk next week . 3days straight sch..so after work sch3..where got enought time to sleep? Sighhhh .
But I know i'll be okay thnx to bby . He's the reason to everything... the reason to my rajin-ness to go to sch..to study.
Thanks so much bby for segalanya..kau lah segalanya...yg menyinari hdpku ini~ hahaha...balek2 lagu tu.

Sch has been hectic but having sucha great classmates makes everthng fun! Love my kaplan gerls sooo much!!<3
Work??..I wanna change work..but then my workplace will be short of ppl and then..hais its hard. I guess i'll stay here for awhile more.

To ayg; i cant describe how much i realie loveu no matter how much i say or no matter whatever things i do.. no matter whrevr i express my feelings at..sms, call, fb or anywhr..it still doesnt seems enuff. Thnx dear for fetching me frm work everyday..antr i gi sch, amek i frm sch.
I used to be so upset n heartbroken for not getting ur attention years back..but now, this happiness i have, i wont wanna trade it with anythng else.
Cos having you in my life means so much to me. ILYSM sweetheart.

2011-07-19T11:09:00.002+08:00

....

HE make me feel like im the only gerl in the world. Nothing is going the way he wanted and i was supposed to be there to cheer hym up due to some crisis he's facing but im sucha lousy gf. Sometimes, i wonder to myself..am i really worth it to hym cuz there's more better gerls out there. Azrul's character, u gotta get through his heart and at an instant u'll know if thr's something bothering hym . I hope im more than enuff for u bby..

A hot headed stubborn ~~kid~~ guy but kind in the heart . Huhu..~

2011-07-17T15:42:00.007+08:00

Helloooo readers..my post for today..might be a bit sensitive..or should i say totally sensitive.
Im feeling down..with myself. No not because of azrul..not because we're in a fight or anythng . We're both doing fine as always..just that at times....
i have my mood..where i just wanna be alone..and just think where everythng went wrong in my life.
It's been some time since i used lappy..and i was browsing through all the past picturesss..i saw......something...which happened 2yrs back..which broke my heart truly and thats e year i terribly wish i could end my life.
But thngs change when there's support from friends..but still..it's a yr whr i learnt that i wont always get what i want..and no matter how hard i tried fighting for it..i know things can nvr be the same evr again . And thats the year i started to let go . And yes...its bout hym .
No one other than my hopefully my future husband..

I dont know why now..i just feel like blurting it out everthng here..it's superr hard to hold back .
I really3 had a hard time being with azrul in the past. Who says love was easy anw ?..

It was perfect at the beginning..cus we were both each othr's crush during secondary times..because of me..hys ex suffered for long forgetting hym..and at the same time hating me.And because of hym, my ex cried not wanting to lose me. Karma really strikes me back when azrul entered ite simei..things changed after 9mnths 2gether..he found someone..much better than me i thought. But after 3wks..he came back running saying noone could pujok hym the way i did..and he said it felt so different being wf her. Another reason why we got back was also bcos one of hys jsfc friends came to mcm2 wf me . Ok so i thought, that was it .

Life was again perfect until 9mnths again ltr..another ite simei gerl..a fanatic bitch..*opss..well that was what azrul realised after getting to know her. hell yeah she's a minah ! But yea..after getting to know me..she was ok..and said that i was a nice gerl. LOL . Ok..so definitely i respected her even tho she maki-ed me w/o knowing the full story. I know all the gerls that got to know azrul wasnt at fault. I dont blame all these gerls..they were just blinded by love. All thnx to the guy itself for toying wf the gerls feelings. She even kept on calling me why azrul was ignoring her .. lols. Sadly i cnt help her..even if i wished i could. Thngs happen between me n azrul's ex sec sch mates..which make hym furious and somehow we're back....wasnt expecting much from hym tho and there he goes again..a jerk will always be a jerk righttt .

In weeks time,another ite simei gerl..ohwhyy am i so unlucky????... That was the last i could stand it and i bcame a total bitch. It was hard okay :'( This is what i saved 2yrs back..still in my lappy. U can press the picture below to see clearly.

And again we were on off a few times due to some contacting wf hys current friends.. But well we still meet up once every 2wks..those were the mnths i felt tortured real badly..i knew deep in my heart there's still hope..even when there's no hope left..until one point of a time..i felt happy for hym.

Felt happy that maybe this is for real..this isnt a dream. What do i get anw for holding back..i know im still 18 and thr's more to life..i know someone out thr could be falling for my smile,my laughter,my craziness, n to tc of me for the rest of hys entire life. And i didint know..it was still hym .

HYM who broke my heart ! HYM who crushed my heart into pieces..and when i was about to get up on my feet putting the pieces back once again myself independently..there he is..mending my heart..slowly..day by day..until now..it was perfect again. I was hoping to be alone..finding the right guy. But i guess it was HYM after all. My mr.right. Everythng that happened in the past, i accept it as a challenge from allah to see how strong i am. My biggest test of love.

Really it has nth got to do wf dear love..its me..for bringing up. Obviously Ive del the pic now but by putting this up, i'll keep it as memories..and years ahead i'll be smiling,laughing n feel silly reading it back.
Now, all i can say is im the happiest gerl alive. But some moments cant be erased no matter how much i wanted to. Life's perfect now.
Thnx to the both of us..we've changed to be a better person in and out. He wants the best for me..did the best he could for everythng i wanted and wanted for. When he knew he disappoint me, he would somehow try to make up for it. I know impossible to believe..cuz i cant believe my eyes either. He changed alot after we got back on the midnite of 1st jan 2010. No doubt, He's the best thing ive ever had. Im glad he has opened hys eye to see whats wrong and whats right..
And for the gerls , im cool wf them and am happy to see them happy wf their loved ones.
Cant believed i teared while typing all these..maybe it still hurts a little. Well a lesson to learn anw.
We both know noone can tolerate our own nonsense much more den us.
And i know he cant be apart from me !! :))
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me; wat if i werk n sch..i got no tyme for u?huh?
hym; huh? biarlaa. bt jgn uat project ngn laki laen sdh
me; u dun mind la ni i tkde tyme untk u?
hym; just jgn brk phm?
me; why?
hym; cos i cant be apart from u!
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BE IT IN GOOD OR BAD TIMES...UR F-ING ATTITUDE WHICH SUCKS TO THE CORE OR WHATEVER PPL SAY, IT DOESNT MATTER . It doesnt matter if ur a big player in the past, it doesnt matter what u did in the past or how much u hurt me..cus the past is the past. We're moving on to a better life..brighter future. NOTHING MATTERS TO ME..AS LONG WE'RE STILL TOGETHER, THATS ALL THAT MATTERS.
Cant wait for nxt yr to celebrate our anniversary..by then believe it or not, we only have 8more mnths left !!
weeeeeeeee!~

2011-07-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

BOO !!
I'll talk ~~less~~ and more of pics okay . I wonder if ppl still read my blog even after ive not been attending to it for quite some time . Huhuuu..
How fast time flies..n it's alrd july ?!!
Sch's gonna start sch soon ! weeeee cant wait ! i really need to learn something new asap cuz i guess my brain's gonna be dead soon... =/
And next mnth, fasting mnth begins ! by e tyme we knew it..it'll be dec ! & me&love only got a yr left !! weeeee....!
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K gerls do read this !
We boys don’t get butterflies, we get fireworks. We don’t have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we’d spend all our time with you if possible. We don’t think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there’s more.
We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when she’s asleep.
A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways.

Mr&Mrs Azrul ! -_-

My Mr.Surprise !!<3

Im soo soo SOO contented with my life .

Thnx to my family , and boifren .

Been having so much great time wf bbylove every sngl day despite my tight working schedule.

He makes everythng impossible to possible..he makes sacrifices..n he gave surprises that I thought wouldnt happen .

He's such a sweetheart..and he nvr fails to make me happy , touched and feel so loved .

IM SO BLESSED .

Alhamdulillah .

Millions words couldnt even describe how much ilovehym and how much he means to me .
As ppl say...kte hanya merancang tapi tuhan yg menentukan..just hope we're really meant for each other .
Lau da jodoh..tkkn ke mane kn !! haha .
2013 pls fly fast !!

2011-06-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

oh boi..cnt believe it's been 2wks since i last updte .

Life has been so crazy and busy !

And I cant be more contented in life !!

Even if there's a tiny winy lil ups&dwns with blove..everythng seems to be going perfect.

Alhamdulillah . Cant be anymore happier .

xoxo

2011-06-04T13:28:00.001+08:00

First and foremost , would like to thank ALLAH for all that he has given me . Strength to face all difficulties and challenges in life . Alhamdulillah life so far has been soo good .
Finally , Im free today to updte u dear blog . After work , either go home sleep or meet bby . Sampai umah , tros flat -.-
Will upload all the pics which I've yet to upload .

HAHA . dont mind..pagi2 mata sepet siket .

Day by day when I looked at hym..makes me fall more n more for hym. 1word, IRRESISTABLE !!

Date with ayg a day before his big day .

Last wk was cuzzie's wedding !! these two Hai Seng Sec couple lasting till marriage ..oh gd for them !!
Couple greenview ni biler laa nak kawin ! haha . biler ayg biler ehh ?? hahahaha .
and me and ayg was planning what colour baju pengatin will we be wearing for our big day nnty . Wee cant wait !!! hahas .

Me; bie2, sing for me too k during our wedding .
Hym; ye ofcos!
Me; k best. nyanyi kat my side tauw.
Hym; tknk uh..malu la .nyanyi pt my side!
haha ! blh gytuuuuu !! tsk !

As usual there's more but cannot fit in anymore ltr roboh !

LASTLYYYYYY !!!! I've yet to show u our new baby !!
Initially it's black, but ayg recently sprayed it GREEEEEEEEEEEEN ! cus my fav green maa . huhu ! But it's dark green laa..i like brighter green . But..thats ok..asalkan HIJAU !

Saaaaaaaayang aygggg ! Mwahhhhh !

2011-06-02T12:56:00.001+08:00

Been posted to another branch so sadly cant meet Ika everyday..joke2,gossip2 !! hmphhhh . basket btol schedule .

Ayg soooo comel la kay !!! haha . So this branch here is at a shopping centre..at its just beside mac ....and last night before giving night2 msges he said....'....ape2 mac rider ke sape2 mntk num ckp da tunang!' hee...comel !! geram ! <3

2011-05-20T10:48:00.000+08:00

' Will u marry me mama..? '

AWWWW..thats it ! I wanna get married to my dear love like now can ???

saaaaaaaaaaayang azrul . !!
OH ! papa's turning 21 tmrww . weeee da besar dier !

2011-05-15T15:48:00.000+08:00

His msges nvr fails to put a smile on my face.

All back in february .

Ohh dont mind the dates .

Just wanna let u know bie2 how much i love u !! maybe much more than u love me . I used to say its impossible between us..but u make everythng possible..possible for us to last till e very end . U make me believe in things i nvr believe in . Ur warmth hug , ur gentle kiss ,the way u control my anger , my temper , my moodiness & the way u love me..it's irresistable my love .

Noone could understand me as much as u do !

Saaaaaaayang azrul ! :)

2011-05-14T19:39:00.001+08:00

BOOOO !!
heheeeee...ayg is superrrr sweet ! as ALWAYS !! whenever i bought bubble tea i'll always take e red straw cuz its ayg fav color..n i didnt realise myself that whenever ayg bought it,he took e green straw cuz its myyyy fav colour. Didnt realise until he tell me soo . Aww..so comel ! So so soo many surprises he made these few days lorrrr..eee geram !
Life has been oh sooo balanced . Love..work..sch je lom start . Cant wait for my future..and my life with ayg . So yest, after work.....lucky it didnt rain that heavily when ayg fetched me . BUT it rained superr heavily when we reached tamp dinner at kfc..wf adkck,yati,hariz n een.

AND THERE'S IKA !

He's my HAPPY ENDING !
ILY SOOO MUCH PRINCE CHARMING ! Mwahhhhhh ! <3

2011-05-08T19:43:00.000+08:00

I love my fat cat !

Some of them are just outdated pics which has been in my phone for long but no time to upload . Ayg has been so sweet la kay . Been fetching me from work everyday even though he actually cant go out cuz have to stay in . But he took e risk to cabots . Lovehym soooo much !

And then...last night met hym, then he go play comp at elias mall wf friends..4+am,came dwn wf didi and bought for me mac . Lovehymm mooooooore !

2011-04-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

ALL ME & BLOVE WANTS NOW!!.. ISSSSS.....

TO GET MARRIIED .

OHMY . LIKE SERIOUSLY .

HEH..

TOO DEEPLY ENGROSSED WF EACH OTHER

2011-04-19T11:52:00.002+08:00

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her; who could have imagine,u n i brk wf each others ex for each other. n now we're lasting long.mcm fairytale gytu.hahas.
him; tau tkpe bie ! im so happi nw...
her; im happy too ! u make me feel lyk i dont need any1 else except u. loving u is addictive u know that dear.i just cant get enough.
him; me too ayg ! im very happi wf my lyf now wf u but not army life!

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I used to be called a bitch , rlthp breaker , bf stealer etc . Ayg was being called a jerk and everything . But , thinking bout all those happen 3yrs back , it didnt stop us from being apart . Nothing people say has ever brought us down cuz we got each other's back . We never stop loving each other even though there's many roughest days being together. Now both of us , grown up ..thinking for the best for us . I just loooove US so much . Cant wait to see what the future holds for us .
:)

2011-04-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

yooo !!

what a week mannnn . i miss blogging der !!!

last wkend , SATURDAY ..finally bie2 POP !! met hym when he reached home then night2 lpk3 wf blove wf friends till late morn and idk why my eyes could tahan for more than 24hrs wf no sleep .

Mon ? Tue ? Work was super tiring . So many patients . But i swear i love my job . It couldnt get any better when bie2 send and fetch me home . Since he got 1wk brk after pop .

Wed ? Was sent to work at shenton branch . Bie2 love touched my heart cuz despite the rain , he's just willing to fetch me . Huhu..but luckily half way through back to tamp , no more rain . AND not forgetting , something happened....something which probably allah wants to test our relationship . But we managed to pull through and as always , after every fight , we will feel more love towards each other .

Yest...after work went tamp watch blove play takraw .

Just now...after work blove brought me to Safra to watch Lian Cheng boys play soccer .

whats more interesting , blove got hys posting alrdy today !! wuhuuuu luckily tak kene case antr luar negeri . slamat2 . hahaha .

Soooooo...im feeling really2 envious okay . HAHA ! 6 of my colleagues are getting married this yr sia !! GRR !! and they 're asking me to quickly get married too . LOL . How to ? Haha . Am just waiting patiently for nxt yr dec

I dont wanna wait for a long time either cuz by the time he finish serving the nation , we're gonna be almost 5yrs alrdy .

My dear wonderful readers , pray the best for us okay ? :)

xoxo .

2011-04-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

BOO !!

Idk when i'll be able to have the time to updte blog cos starting 2mrw , most of the days night shift . Boo-hoo .Conferm shagged !

At the same time , SUPER EXITED !! Ayg this saturday POP ohh !! woohoo ! Double happiness for me !

AT WORK .

And here comes her hubby fetching hys wifey !

I just realised how boring Singapore Universal Studio is . Balik2 pergi end up kat tmpt tu jgk ! I rather saving up $$ go Hongkong Disneyland wf ayg ! Weeee...or Universal Studio at US ? Bahaha . . save2 duet nak gi US , smpai bile pun tak kawin2 nanty . Hoho . and AGAIN talking bout marriage !! So many ex-greenviewans are alrdy engage !! Ohmy !! So happy for them . And it's like the wedding season alrdy now . Cant wait for nxt mnth !

Random.....

me; when did u start loving me eh?

hym; secondary sch...

me; huh ??serious ??but ur wf ____ sia..

hym; beh i da tgk2 u wad..u ni..

me; ehk? ish nottie!hopefully im e last. ade i tgh nan u beh u tgk2 pmpn laen

hym; tkla bie..ur e last im sure of it

me; amin ! AMIN !! loveu too much sygku!

hym; amin syg.!hehe..

Hehh..oh how much i love it when blove's bathing..wf hys durian hair !! hahaha . MY BBY IS F-ING HOT SIAAAA !!!!

hahahaha =p

K BYE PPL !!

2011-03-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

Happy 37mnths anniversary to me and u blove bby AZRUL !!

Thats was pics for weekends . Ayg was on mc today so am really happy dpt dilayan oleh dia . hahaha .

Ya allah , kekalkan la hubungan aku dan azrul . AMIN !

hehes . i love that boy too much . !

Not much to talk..just pictures this time .

K bye !

2011-03-20T20:37:00.000+08:00

Tired tired TIRED ! Touch down spore at 8+pm last night from Indonesia . Stayed there for a week . And how fast time flies . I wish i could stay there longer !
Texted ayg and he was out movie with friends . So got home , unpack stuffs that i bought for ayg..and meet up with hym when he reached tamp . Slack3 , got home 3+am .
Pictures will updte ltr2 la kaes .

2011-03-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

BOO !

Finally , its the end of my ite life !!

huhu...superrr happy .

Seriously , gonna miss everybodyyyy !!

It's been a month since ayg entered ns . How time flies .

Some say those guys who're in will change , some say..will not .

And i swear i didnt realised until lately . My feelings change . Ayg's attitude change too .

We've talked bout it . and he's like superrr manly now . he even thinks before he talks . Which usually he doesnt and he'll mad me mad .

Ya allah , i feel that im in love with someone else and not hym . And whenever i looked at hym i'll be saying to myself..wow this is the guy i love 3yrs back and now is alr grown up . He changed alot !! and yes im proud of it .

Im fuckingly over crazy for hym now . It's just the best feeling ever . The happiness he gave me .

I swear , im really overwhelmed by all these that's happening to us .

Maybe because i didnt expect ayg to turn out this way .Cos from what i see from friends or other ppl , their guys keep giving them headaches !

Not that ayg isnt good to me in the past..he is ! but im so bersyukur that it's even better this tyme round .

I dont even know how to express my feelings any further . Im really3 overjoyed :')

Ayg , u're the best ! and i know u know it too :))

2011-02-27T20:51:00.001+08:00

Friday , psr rs . Saturday , tamp wf bby and friends . Sunday , psr rs .
I swear i was so excited whenever i get to meet love .
Sooo...ayg have the irritating field camp starting tomorrow . and 2mrw is our 3yrs anni ! Bahhhh..Cant help but feeling sad . But ayg was like pls dont cry , ur my pillar of stength now . Lol . So comel . <3
Super cant take it !! Im so deeply in love wf hym like craaaaaazyyyyyyy . !!

2011-02-23T19:53:00.003+08:00

BF IS STILL AS HOT AS EVER <3

Those exciting feelings when i know im gonna meet love.....and thennn it seems so over too soon and now im suffering back again missing hym . Haissssss.... Blove bookout on sunday night..met for awhile at psr rs and spent the day throughout on mon and tue . goodness sake . cant help but feeling weak back again when he keep saying he miss me . urgh !!! missing hym badly alrdy :(((
Been asking bie2 to cepat2 carik duet . Duet da ade , can kawin and we wont be missing each other this fucking badly once we live in the same roof . lol =p

2011-02-17T17:09:00.000+08:00

Blove is the sweetest person ive ever met . lol =p

Due to hys flat batt , he cudnt text me anymore :(

But ayg asked arnd and thankfully a wonderful soul lent hys fon to ayg almost every night alrd .

I guess too much is going on in my mind and i can seem to be concentrating anymore in class .

Told ayg bout it and i broke down last night telling hym how much i really2 miss hym .

Ayg didnt wanna put down the phone unless i stop crying..and he say....

jgn pk2 nnty u cross rd u khayal beh accident .

and i was like uh ?.. i thot he still got e cheek to joke arnd .

but he responded just be sure to look left and right before u cross the road .

Lol -.-

Still , i felt real bad ! Im the one who should be strong not wanting to worry hym but i ended up being a weakling . And i know from the tone of hys voice , he's just trying to be strong for me . Idk why it seems so hard for me to take it . It was ok the 1st few days..but as days pass , it seems so hard more than ever .

My convo wf hym has always been the same thng . as in..we nvr fail to talk bout the past . I know talking bout the past is no good , but we had so much interesting things that happen in the past between us . or even before there is US .

ayg; if only kte mataer during gv times eh..

me; taknak uh . i rather ltr then b4 . org mataer during gv pun ended da kua sch , brk .

I believe there's a reason why we were fated ltr and not before . Before...me&ayg were'nt that serious wf our ex-es . Honestly , i still stick wf the prev one for the sake of we've been together for 3yrs+ . And ayg's situation is for the sake nak ade mataer je . See..we have our own flaws . We're both normal ppl..ended up together....still not serious wf each other . Ayg flirt arnd , i cntcted other guys . One problems after another , it opened both of our eyes . And thats when we both realised the importance of each other . After all the dramas in this rltnshp , we pull it through and im proud wf the place we're in .

What would i do without u bbylove ?..

I love you too much !!

2011-02-15T20:10:00.003+08:00

Finally , i've got time to update my dear bloggy .

& finally , presentations are over !!

Left with only one subject to focus on and im done with biiiishannn .

I swear i cant wait to leave that sch..however im sooo grateful to be making new wonderful awesome bunch of friends .

I miss bbylove like crazy !! Miss hym even more when he say make sure jumpe tau nnty..jmpe tau....

Hais...so heart breaking to hear blove's complain bout whatever happens over there .

Nehmind..1yr 10mnths gonna be over soon by the time i knew it !

Still rmmbr last wk , told bby how much i cant take it ..how much i miss hym and he'll be like u sendiri kate 1yr 10mnths will fly fast , ni 2minggu je sey . Huahua . True enough anw . It's just that i get a lil carried away too much at times .

Anws , was otp wf ayg and heard hys friend ask if anyone wanna sign on join police..obviously me and ayg same2 say takya lah . . hehh great minds think alike ! i know ! LOL . nahhh . . just that we both dont like the idea where nnty tak psl2 he kena call suro dtg keje or whatsoever . . or night shift ke . We both want normal workings hours where everynight we can be together . . when we're married la ofcos .

What's more , i cant wait for 2013 !! Noo not our wedding yr ofcos . hahaha .

Talking bout wedding..congrats to eika and didi..! They'll be the 1st one to go !! the 1st kaizoku's couple to naek pelamin :))
They really remind me of my cuzzie whose getting married this yr and these couple is only 22 . Secondary sweetheart la katekan . 8yrs alrdy for them and tnggu lame2 btpe kan . Cant wait for my cuzzie's and eika's wedding !!

My wedding ? wait long2 . But me&ayg planned for the yr we wanna get engaged . ya allah , i cant wait . huhu . . dont wanna say it 1st , tkot tak menjadi nnty . hahs .

Thats all for today people ! ;))

2011-02-09T15:36:00.002+08:00

Third day and it seems pretty alright to me . But pitiful blove on the 1st day , told me he cant focus cos he keep thinking bout me . Thinking what i did outside and etc . Plus , i kept texting him on e 1st day despite knowing he wont rply . Lol . Alhamdulillah , now i got control of myself but i still do leave a hym a msg or two just so when he on hys phone , he'll know that im always thinking of hym .
True enough what bbylove's cousin said to me...ns guy if they're in , they tend to be sensitive . Ayg keep reminding...'jgn uat bende i tak suke.' Haisssss..rindu2 !
Blove have also told me hys ord date and im f-ing excited ! hahah . I know ler he just started im sure time's gonna fly fast . As he has said....'Time will fly fast n wen u noe it,we would be like we used to be,always together ok bie?'
Whenever i feel like i really need hym badly..those words simply put a smile on my face .

I miss every bit of hym though .
Still remember..we're about to sleep and.....
hym; bie , i sejuk uhh..
me; *twirl to the other side to get comfy* while saying abeh ? nak i btpe ?
and i hear hym mumbling in a soft tone.. beh bknnyer nak pelok...
LOL . and i cuddle hym ofocs right after that .
I miss manja-ing wf hym and i miss getting manja by hym :((

We browse thru our old pics and talk bout the changes in appearance , weight...n in the past ayg was like in this b4 pic...skinny huh . but now.......see the diffrence ? cheek dier naek . huahua !

2011-02-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

Was truly upset that at e last minute im unable to follow bie2 go race at sengkang on friday night . *sighh .
But am truly happy to see hym last night when he come here right after his soccer at night . and we'll be talking on the phone all the way after he left until hys batt went flat . and he'll went home to charge hys phone just so we could txt again even if it's for a short while .
And today , met hym when he's playing soccer at pasir ris pri . Was soo soo happy ! Even tho he smells masham skalik !! hehh . .
ohmy . i swear im gonna miss hym like fuck . gonna miss hys body smell , e smell of hys neck when he woke up , hys perfume smell .
i rmmbr few days back..i was whining n i was like ' BIE !! camne ni...camne2 ' and he say ' sng je . u balek nnty , hari2 gi selawat ' -.-
ILOVE AZRUL BIN OTHMAN SOOOOO MUCH lerrr !

2011-02-02T10:39:00.000+08:00

currently at bie2's at crib and he's still yet to wake up .

went his rm and i was like mane sia azrul .

cos adkck and syahmi were sleeping too and sme cover muke . ade je nnty aku tersalah pegang mataer org .

lol . laki lau org kejot berpuluh puluh kali takkan agn2 nyer . TATING !

2011-01-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

EEEEEEEE !!!!!!!! so pissed wf adkck !! pakai fb org beh chat2 ngn org n anyhow adding ppl up .
ade je org pk me or azrul yg chat wf them .
tukar pw many times pun useless....azrul keep forgetting to log out from lappy everytime he uses it .
so ppl in my fb list , beware k !!!
the ppl who chat wf u 1st might not be me nor azrul !
it's his DEAR TWINS BRO !!

2011-01-27T20:28:00.001+08:00

Been meeting love everyday..since we've got not much time left kan . *big sigh .
So mondayy...went ttsh for love's mom appointment . The only thng mom said that really caught my attention..she was talking bout the azrul's sis n bro getting married . then she say nnty krg dua beradik aku kawinkan same2 . sng kalau kawin skali . . buat skali pastu dah tu last .
Mate i terbeliak okeh dgr tu ! HAHAHA . I still remember , me and hayati plan nak kawin 2gether on the same pelamin !! LOL . But when i think back , wedding skali dlm hidop and i wanna be the only princess for the day .Geess .

Tuesday- kfc at psr rs .
Wednesday- mee kuah at tamp . power !! thnx to love !
Today, Thursday- yong tau foo at tamp
TOMORROW - PASTAMANIA !

Guess what peeps ! Azrul realised pipi dier makin naek !! haha . baeeek . !
He said ' kte dua gemok jgk sia nnty ' n im totally loving it . haha ! want him to get botak and fat !
Hahs .. kk pics from MONDAY !

2011-01-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

Wanting to have a proper post , but this week has been a busy week so will be the rest of upcoming weeks .
Thanks to the stupid project .
Cant wait to get it over and done with .
Met love most of the days and then went hsptl . Thats the routing luh .
**
Even if u look happy , u smile all the time..u cant lie to me . I see those fear , sadness behind those eyes .
I know u're just pretending to be strong .
I hope u'll find a donor soon dear cousin .
mwahh !
:(

2011-01-22T10:27:00.000+08:00

find someone..

who'll never get tired of kissing you everyday

who'll hug you when you're jealous

who'll understandingly keep silent when you're mad

who'll squeeze your hand when you're not in the mood

who'll plan and imagine the future with you in it

and when you find that someone,

just NEVER LET GO !

I've found mine , have you ?

So so grateful to have azrul in my life . He's the most precious person and the best thing god has ever given me .

He's my happiness . He's my future .

He's the love of my life .

2011-01-17T20:30:00.001+08:00

ohh monday..it never stops raining . last monday , today . pfft .
went to my pumpkin's hse since he's still bathing . mcm pengantin as usual .
eat with his fam pastu gi psr rs lpak . da tu je ! hahah .

think i wanna sleep early . ngntok der . ! =/

2011-01-16T21:05:00.001+08:00

two fat ass couple . hoho . <3

i miss camwhoring wf bbylove . !

2011-01-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

All our fights and lies made us stronger . thats where you can tell if its real love .

no matter what happens , you make it through together .

each person has insecurities and character flaws that they have to get past ,

and it’s a decision to grow together and reach a place of understanding and acceptance

or grow apart and go separate ways .

it’s a test of how strong your love is for that person .

you either give up or hold on for dear life .

2011-01-14T16:05:00.003+08:00

No matter how bad we fight , now matter how terrible the situation turned out to be , I know forever he'll still be THE ONE . I know you love too much bby thats why u can never let me go . kan syg kan ! HAHA . I lagi love you much2 mooore . Gosh..i miss bie2 boi alrd :(((

Anw....click and bace la sendiri . haha . Kecoo kepee .

Youths loiter and rev bike engines every night till 5am
It is hard to get a good night's rest when youths gather at wee hours of the morning to talk and rev the engines on their motorbikes, says STOMPer MrTampines, who is at his wits end.

2011-01-10T20:13:00.002+08:00

Suke nah bie2 boi give me surprises tauw . Caer saye . Hahaha .
But i got mad still cos he kept it from me and he was like..kate surprise . Hoho !
The longer i am with hym , the more i cant resist being around hym .
Bby's just so cuuuute !! lol .
Went to eat with blove..dunnoe whr to eat since raining so we went ehub jer instead .
Potek was there working so hang around jap..then gi makan at me&azrul's restaurant =p
Hahaha . . our fav place to eat .
Potek tag alooong and i thought i could spend more time ngan bby , tapi drg dua sibok nah bromance -.-
Today cudnt be any better despite the pouring rain that never stops .
It was sucha nice cold weather for cuddling session :)

2011-01-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

I think....there's a huge major problem with me .

Idk whats happening but i swear this mood swings that im facing is getting way out of hand .

The worst mood swing ever ! And the last time this occurred was 2mnths ago ?..

Ouh bummer . Bby got treated by me the worst..followed by my lil sis =/

And after soooo long..i started complaining to ppl how pissed i am esp bout blove .

But he is to be blame too for being soooo irritating which makes me so irritated when i got txts from him .

Still , im sorry blove . I know u still love me despite all the words that i threw at u .

And i appreciate that .

mwahhh .

2011-01-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

ITE..pls end faster !

I cant wait to start diploma .

SIM? expensive !!
Kaplan ? location wise..not bad . facilities better than psb academy .
PSB Academy ? location wise..some say not gd..but idk .
MDIS ? less than 50% i'll be taking that . googled and some say its not worth studying at mdis and idk why .
But who am i to judge anw .
The sources i get from might be bias .
**
And my guy cousin have the cheek to say dont take quick&dirty dip ! Go poly better . ass .

Still choosing...~
But there's a high chance i wanna go kaplan ! went to the preview last night thanks with the accompany of my kak sdare whose an accountant . At least got kaki..and seriously she's been helping out alot . I soo love my ladies cousins..all the guys are so irritating !

2011-01-05T17:25:00.002+08:00

I just feel whenever me and love talk about it , we get even crazier in loving each other . Obviously right, which couple wouldn't . It's the start of their love story .
While mine , it all started when i'm having tuition -.-
Feb 19
*phone vibs"..
him : ni siti?
me: huh? no.sape ni??
him: ouh.sorry wrong no. ni sape?
me: ni sape la??i ask u 1st.if tknk ans,i'll ignore ur txt.
him: ni azrul..
me: azrul mane?
him: azrul from greenview..bla3 ( cant exactly rmmbr what he says)
Quickly search for yrbk and check who else with the name azrul..or it really is him..HIM baybeee.my secondary sch crush ! haha .
& indeed , he is !
So our convo continues...and seriously , i still couldnt believe it . So i say...i wanna talk on the phone . And he say he got sore throat..suare laen..but i insist jgk and he agreed . lols..1st time hearing his voice..adoi sexy nyer...

3days after...
Feb 22
Met up cos both wanna go tamp . So waited for him to finish friday prayers at psr rs and then i walked slowly to the main gate in front of gv...and that's when he appears from behind..but i was otp . He looked at me , i looked at him.. wah matrep habes with his coloured hair . Lols . So we cross the zebra crossing..him infront me behind.. and sumpah hanya tuhan saje yg tau hw i felt at that point of time . Hahaha .
At the bustop....
when he's looking right..i took a glance at him and suddenly he turn his head left...then quickly i turn left tgk tmpt lain . hahahah . then when he look right again, i curi2 take a look at him again..
In the bus...
we didnt even talk. malu paaaa...haha .

Feb 25
At sch texting2 him...and for the 1st time he call me ' syg ' . haha terharuuu i . So Azrul fetch me from sch..with Fad . Went tamp , lepak at pirate . Fad went off..and azrul wanna sent me home but then da nak smpai bustop alrdy, bumped into someone and.....*drama* .
All gotta do with past rltnshp...so i decided to go back home 1st while azrul halang her cos it looks like she really wanna hentam me =S
Got home..azrul txt3 me...trying to please3 me .
Haha . . those moments..i just find it cute .
' u...i da tkde pape lagy ngn dier..pls..i nak ngn u..not her...' lol..guys -.-
gave it a few days....and

Feb28
HIM : ' Will u be mine? '

Hoho..obviously u guys know the ans ;)
It's a lil too soon but im really3 happy and very3 lucky after all..
Cheeeeeky bf, iloveyou sooooo much ! <3
And there u go..280208 . thats how our lovestory starts . what about you ? :)

2011-01-03T20:19:00.001+08:00

Thanks alot to ayg for the dresses he bought for me .

Iloike!

Saaaaayang bie2 boi! <3

mwahhhh bby...!

2011-01-01T10:53:00.001+08:00

Got my life secured by the man of my life !

My handsome adorable irritating sweetheart .

Hopefully , everything went well as planned ;DD
LOVEU CINTA !
&happy new yr ppl :)

2010-12-27T19:28:00.001+08:00

CAN I LIKE GET MARRIED TO MY BF NOW ?

Hahahaha . I WISH I COULD . ♥♥♥

2010-12-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

AYG'S HOME ! FINALLY SLEEPING WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE <3

Text3 and was waiting3 for him to say it 1st . AND FINALLY ..all the i miss u lots..love u sooo much all came out . Lols . Saaaayang azrul . Me and mira was like craaazily waiting for our beloved bfs to be home yesterday . hahas . Ni baru je g KL ehh..kalau da ns mcm mane nta..lols. Havent really think bout that yet though . So scaryyy . Will be sooo lonelyyy . I swear im loving bbyboi even mooore. Within the past 2yr 9mnths, never i get sick of him except for his horrendous attitude..ya know those playboi times of his aka sickening irritating idiot guy . Other than that, NOW...he's being the best ! :DD

Ok this is random..! In every rltnshps this shit will happen most of the time .
Guy...make 1st mistake.
Gerl..1st time anw..ok forgive him.
Guy..wont kill doing it again for the 2nd tyme
Gerl...last chance im telling u!if not,thats it !
Guy...do it AGAIN
Gerl...ungkit,maki,ugut nak brk(mcm paham)
Guy...ego..brk,brk uh./ sory3 wont do it again.i'll be mature....bla3
Gerl..love hym too much.cant let go.gave chance again
Guy...go to hell..she loves me too much.if ever i do again,i knew she'll still forgive me.(do again)

and will go on and on and on...brk patch brk patch,timeout,sweet talks...
All these are JUST from my point of view..it can happen vice versa though .
If u're willing to go through these,good for u.
If not, forget bout him !
If he really3 change, then it's even better for u .
Gdluck to all the lovebirds out there :)

I wanna cut my fringe ! But bbyboi wants it to be just the way it is..grr!
More3 pictures uploaded soon .

2010-12-22T09:06:00.001+08:00

MAWWWWNINK EEEEE-DDDDDD-OTSSS !
:)) Bby's gonna be away from today cos he's going kl with friends . Was whinning3 over the phone with ayg while he's otw there..manje la katekan..hahs . And now , i cant sleep .
Ohmy..bby is just so cute .
He's adorable just the way he is .
He wont leave me alone no matter how far our distance is and thats why im sooo crazy over him .
And lastly , he's f-ing hot . !!
Dont envy me..cos i know i got the best bf in the world ! Lols..*irritating mode =p
**
Counting down to 6days baybee ! <3

2010-12-17T16:26:00.000+08:00

Wuhuuuuu ! Holiday just started .
Man..it's been so long tak update . Been very very busy .
Today bby manjeku sungguh hot . He's new haircut makes him hotter ! Haha .
Lately just slack around at bie2 hse since bie2 had a very hard time waking up .
oh have i say before that bby's big bro looks soooo handsome?? So untung la the tunang . Hahas . I guess bby took after him cos bby looks more alike to him rather than adkck .
So went to have lunch with bby at ehub but slack for a while outside ehub cos coincidentally potek was there working . After mamam , bby send me home then off he went accompany didi go safra
K da itu jeee..cant wait to spend mooore time with my ayg during these hols period .
<3

MY BF IS BETTER THAN YOUR BF !

2010-12-05T11:23:00.000+08:00

BOOOOORING PERRR .
Woke up so early in the morn with nth to do.
Oh well , Bbylove is giving me a hard hard time :((
Bahaha nahh..he's an irritating dummy !
tak ke pandai..my plan was to eat eat eat with bie2 just to make bie2 fat right ?
BUT end up , im getting fat myself while bie2...MAINTAIN .
and bie2 said this is what it's called psychology or something..?..like macam phm la that gundu .
When we're together , he keeps disturbing that im fat.. and he was like doing he's style ' yessssa takde laki nak nyer ' -.-
When at home alr....' i didnt mean what i say dat u're fat..i maen2 je bie.ur beautiful in my eyes syg..'
Hehh..=p
**
Counting down the days back to indonesiaaaa ..!
:))

its dec baybee!

2010-12-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

Raining for the couple of days doesnt stop us from miting each other..
syg sngt2 samer azrul..in the rain,he did something which makes me shy in front of the public..but it would make ppl say 'aww...' hehh .
soo..thankfully it didnt rain when we met today. After soo long wanna buy for us a new ring , we eventually got one ! Like FINALLY . Let say it's for our advance 3yrs anniversary..cos i suppose..either one of us wont be at spore during our 3yrs...cant say it now cos it's too a lil too soon to break the news . . *nervous .
Pictures of the love of my life <3
Irritating face!

2MORROW !!

2010-12-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

FUCK SHIT SIA .
The new ITE College Central which will be ready by 2013 is fucking aweeeesome !
watch news at suria and they showed the model of the building .
And I swear man..it looks like a SHOPPING MALL !! hahaha .
tak fair pe :(
zaman ite nye skola dulu2 mcm......those typical secondary schs -____-
skg.....so modernise . looks even better than poly building .
i think it looks even better and bigger than white sand . lol .
**
waduhhh..kangen banget sama azrul !

2010-11-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

Im loving azrul more more mooooore than much !

MWAHHHHHHH ! =DD

Tight week .

2010-11-28T21:10:00.001+08:00

Went to my cousin's child care centre and help out with the make-up for their graduation rehearsals . These bunch of kids are aweeesome . <3

Fri night , abg sdare got married .
Even though it's a tight night , we all had a blast !

See my bbyboi..sooo cute !

Cousins.

There's more not in here..because too full alrdy liao .

Their big family..2daughter and 1 more son not in the pic .

More pictures..FB .
& NOT FORGETTING . .
Happy 33mnths to me and azrul bby . !
wuhuuuu !
saaaaayang my ayg .

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS SOOOOOO BIG !!!

2010-11-21T20:30:00.001+08:00

BOO !
hehh .
Yesterday was boooring .
Bby slept the whole day throughout , so did I .
But then he fetch me a lil bit ltr at night to changi where his friends were...fishing .
Slack2..3am went off . Lpak at psr rs..4+am went home .
And damn , tell u ..I really had a GOOOD sleep . ! until bby wake me up at 1+pm -.-
Today , nth much either . Stayed at home..pack stuff . Cant wait to go back Indonesia .
Boi , the last was 2yrs back .
And it was all because of the earthquake that we didnt went back there last yr .
Despite the volcanic eruption that happened lately , im still looking forward to go back there !

**

Noone can ever compare to how amazing u really are
and I dont think I can ever explain how much u mean to me .
ILOVEYOU SO MUCHHH AYG ! :))

wakeup bby.

2010-11-19T21:07:00.001+08:00

Todayyy , wait for bby under his void deck . Saw his mom and her friend but i hide . Haha . Maen sembunyi2 plak aku . Bby came down and
the mom ask ' eh kau nak gi mane? '
bie2 ; klua jap .
mom ; jmpe bini kau eh..* then i appear* .. ehk..ni bini dia ada .
Hahas . So cute . Then mom say i look like pelakon . . 'tgk2 mcm la muke syirah' but she forgot the name who .

....after walking away , ask bby which pelakon mom is referring to. . guess who ?? FASHA SANDHA !! ahahaha . my oh my . jaoh laaa...
I love bby's mom .! She's there to listen those times when i fought with love . , give advice . . and she's very2 funny =D
<3<3

**
Today didi bthday celebration.. sorry ika , i tak tron . still , meet u soon someday k :)
and dari tadi kejot bby , tak agn2 . nak kejot pun berat hati . i want him to enjoy with his friends . . at the same time , i pity him cos he work 12hrs straight , then meet me somemore . . aiyooo .
hopefully , he'll wakeup soon =/

the best .

2010-11-17T20:59:00.004+08:00

Hello people :)
Im enjoying myself every sngl day .
Really . Lil did I realise that time is passing tooo fast .
..to the extend...
few of my friends went through break-ups..guys stop contacting them , uat prangai & stuff .
Dearests friends , be strong . If there is a will , there is a way . Maybe he'll come back , maybe he''ll not .
Maybe , there's someone out there better waiting for u . Cheer up . . Stay positive . *hugs

Yesterday , went to bbylove's workplace at 6+am since bby end work at 8am . Lpak there and had breakfast together . PANCAKES !~ =D
Da tu , bored . . dunnoe what to do , where to go . So jln3 , and end up decided not to go sch . And love didnt go home cos mom siang2 da call what time going home . hahas . so dua2 terpkse dgn baju skola and baju keje gi jln2 sane sini .
Well , and it turned out to be one of the best day ever we had .

my sexylove !

* dont mind the date , am using bby's old phone . yet to change the date&time .

I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART MORE THAN EVER !
Bcos in the past , I can write a WHOLE list of things I hate bout u .
But now , there's nth I could complain of .
Im thankful , for having u in my life . For making a world of fairytale turn to reality .

ILY , Prince Charming .

contented !

2010-11-12T16:53:00.001+08:00

I read back my drafts . I found this .

i guesss we're done , let's not drag this on . Consider me gone .

A millon words would not bring u back...
i know cause ive tried...
and a millon tears wouldnt either...
i know because ive cried

haha . ok . tu last yr tyme tgh pedih2 .  lol .

i swear yesterday was a very happy3 day !!

went to bbylove hse . Saw my twin , HAYATI . So long sia nvr mit . Oh my goodness . We hug like for sooo long . Awww . . hahas . I miss herr .The last time we met was when i followed to send adkck off at airport few mnths back . . lamer gile da tuu .

Then...

Went out to eat with syg then had some past issue which he've been keeping for a yr alrd =/
Now im feeling the guilt for he has been carrying that secret all along and bearing the pain without sharing it with me . It's complicated . I cried&cried for a few mins . Totally unbearable . The thing is , we LOVE each other . . but we HATE what each of us have done when we broke up . Bby even say he didnt plan to tell me at all but he said . . 'since kte mature and tak gado sngt, i let it all out....' . oh well , al least he think that way . hah . mature is sucha BIG word . cos azrul used to be a playful person when i first got to know him .

Then....
me&bby had some fun together b4 he send me home .
That's when at night bff ask for a meet up just to give me my bthday present . awww . . hahas .
shared alot of stories since it has been months tak jmpe .

ohmy . . i feel like im missing everyone -.-

forever in my heart .

2010-11-08T20:56:00.001+08:00

MONDAY
Went to eat at the Hong Kong restaurant at Ehub again .

TUESDAY
Had napfa test !! The last napfa test i tell u ! dgn muka ku merah padam , terpakse lah klua je skola since bby da smpai . cant be bothered to wash up anw cos i really need the wind . . sweating all over like crazy . so it was likee 'ahhh so nice' when we took off . lol .
Went to eat at KFC downtown . Walk one big round while explaining to bbylove how the cause of death happen to Darren . Org tampines la katekan..slenge bacin . hahaha .
Got home and i asked sayang , do i smell just now . . cos he never stop kissing when we met =p and he rply that i smell gd lagy ade uh . huahua now then he knows how i feel when i keep kissing him when he's in sweat ^^

WEDNESDAY
Met June beybeh at simei mrt where we then proceed to ite simei for career fair while the rest of the classmates went by sch bus from bishan . huahua .
Bie2 fetch then we ate at eastpoint since im craving for yong tao foo .

Thursday
Me craving for LJS . So bbyboi brought me to eat at tamp mall .
There's actually pictures but I've yet to upload .

I've post this before but i'll post it again cos i looove this quote .

It is not destiny that determines love. It is choice. Our so called destiny is a lie. Relationships last long not because they’re destined to last long. Relationships last long because two brave people made a choice. To keep it, to fight for it and to work for it. Meanwhile, other relationships fail not because they’re destined to fail. They failed because one of the two or both made the choice. To set each other free.

Scientists found out that romantic love involves chemical changes in the brain that lasts 12-18 months. After that, you and your partner are on your own. Love can absolutely last for a lifetime if you know how to commit.

True enough ! my rltnshp with bbylove goyang after our 18mnths ! . . 19 , 20 , 21 . . 22mnths onwards till now , alhamdulillah everything changed ! Syukur sngt2 .

2010-11-01T20:02:00.000+08:00

Ohh how i loveee this week ! !
& bbyku is otw playing takraw opp my blk ! <3
weee...
walaupun u boncit , i tetap saaaaayang u sngt2 . hahahaha
=p
**
During his ite times , when i fetch him from sch , he always want to btol2 kan his hair and this is where i'll say ' ehk , nak hansem2 btpe ? da ade mataer kan ! '
now...when it's me doing my hair , he'll say . . ' siket2 nak ano rmbt . potong kan botak baru tau '
-.- irritating bf .

2010-10-31T21:45:00.002+08:00

I'm really looking forward to the future . I may not know what I've yet to become nor what I wanna be . But there is sooo many plans up ahead . So many things that will change , challenges and more . Me&love have a long wayy to go . He's yet to enter ns =/ fuck , i hate it .
And I wanna go far . Take diploma , have a degree . I wanna give bright future for my future kids . I dont wanna have financial crisis in my family in the future . I dont care how long more we have to go to take a next step in life .
Probably by the time , me&azrul will be 8yrs alrdy together . Hopefully , we'll still be together , still fucking in love with each other . Still a long way to go , but future plan has alrdy planned with bbylove .
Dont care how , dont care when . . but we're gonna make it happen . Insyallah . Semoga cinta kita berkekalan . AMIN . <3
I love the way he sleep , love the way he sulk , love the way he nags , love the way HE LOVE ME . .
boi , i just love everything about you .

my cute lil small boi !!

Met love few days back , ride on adk cik's bike . Bahaha . Cute right the bike . I dont feel comfortable hugging him while on the bike unlike his SP bike . So , I just hold onto his waist . And bby starts to say ohh da taknak pelok i uh ? Then he took my hand off from his waist and put at his stomach . Haha . So cutee . I love it when he behaves like this .

2010-10-28T21:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2yr 8mnths syirAzrul !

Wuhuuuu !~

I've never thought we could ever go this far cos seriously , we've got so much ups&downs .
So much of fighting , misunderstanding , killing each other's heart , doubting and more .

Wanted to wish bie2 at fb cos he's been wishing me first all the wayyy , but he insist on wishing me 1st again :) . currently am waiting for bby to finish playing soccer and see whats he's gonna post about this time . cos if it were to be me , i would be running out of words alrdy -.- lol . I rmmbr at one point of a time few mnths back . . i post at fb saying something like . . ' happy ___mnth anniversary bby ' . . sekali he txt me and ask tu je u ckp ? haha . oh well , that's who azrul is . he needs to be pampered all the timee .Met him today after sch for awhile . . kfc again -.- then lepak . Tomorrow , meet again . wee . ..can squeeeze his face ! he is so tembam ! hahaha .

AZRUL SAYANG , I LOVE YOU ALWAYS OK .
<3<3<3
MWAHHHHH !!

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY 2 !!

2010-10-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

Boo ! =D
Am really happy cos this is my 3rd time celebrating my bthday with love . his bthday , my bthday . . nxt up , 3yr anniversary . ulala~
Not much to say . . except for saturday night ......love&friends went town , then bie2 and some of them headed back to psr rs and we all watched a 2.30am show at ehub . Standard , cite seram . Went home right b4 clock strikes 5 ? i think . then asked bie2 to accompany me otp all the way till he reached home psl gegerl so scared . haha !
And sygku is sick few days back on my bthday , but he still fetch me from schh . alala sayang . . u've sacrifice more than much alrdy bby . saaaayang eu . get well soon gemok :) ily !

K BYE .

OMG .

2010-10-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

1yr9mnths AGO PHOTO . lol . how time fliessss .

IM SO IN LOVE WITH MY PAMPERED SUUWEEETHEART . <3

school ?

2010-10-19T21:24:00.001+08:00

boo !
hello people :)
haha . well , been lazy to update blog .
& i just loooove sch .
i dont feel stressed up like other previous terms .
im able to concentrate like a whole lot better now .
timetable , slack . so...got more time to sleep after sch .
best kan3 . haha .

&imiss azrul laa :(
cant wait to see him 2mrw .
i love the way we fight , the way we reconcile and love each other back .
the love just grew stronger more than ever .
anyone feel me ? im sure some of u guys been in such situation b4
and i love it after a fight , bie2 will always say ' ily always, ingt ! '
bbylove has a warm heart .
and thats one reason why i cant stop loving him .
i love you cinta .

jiweee la bby .

2010-10-11T20:14:00.001+08:00

hellooo people :)
ohmy , 1st day re-opening of sch was not as bad as i think it would be .
it's been a mnth since i last saw mates , and i laughed my heart out when im with them .
that's the most best part of sch , FRIENDS .
start of late , ended early , kfc with bbylove , lepak , HOME .
**
got a haircut and . . . . ya allah . felt regret in the 1st place cos i find it way too short ! but bby say lawa . haha . so oklaa . felt better bout it . && bby say , he wanna cut hair jugakk . baek brooo , jiweeee . hehh .
somehow , i saw some difference with this azrul . either baju dier ketat , or dier gain weight . cos his chest seems to be a lil bit broader . haha . asked hym bout it . . buat work out rupernyer dier . lols . makin cute aku tgk mataer aku . ahaha . . gatal nye saye ! =p
lol .
k slamat .

2010-10-07T20:39:00.000+08:00

I just dont understand why some people have to be such a busybody .
I know la my bf is a gdboi . Kat mane ke , lepak dgn sape ke . . seme dier blg . and i dont think it's got anything to do with u .
Ade menyusahkan kau ke laki aku update aku ? It's between us . Why bother ? Why sibok2 nak bahase2 kan tu pun dier nak bilang aku . Dont poke ur nose into other ppl's business ok !
eee..irritating nyer pompan .

azrul is irresistable :)

2010-10-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes , we cant be bothered by each other anymore when we're having fights .

We don't ever bother to settle it .

Cos somehow , we ourselves know , everything will be back to normal .

oh geez , only god knows how much i miss my pumpkin .

& dear ariff is sick . . really sick . my heart aches alot seeing him crying all the time .

i hope he gets well soon :(

mwahhhhhhh !!

2010-09-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

I HAD A GOOD TIME WITH BBY LAST NIGHT .

weekends .

2010-09-26T21:14:00.001+08:00

I just love the way how guys advice their friends about rltnshps . As in the good things . I just find it cute . Haha . . okay , that's random .
I still remember those early times when im on bad terms with bby , the word brkup never fails to be heard . But at times , ofcos we tend to get sick of it and nowww , alhamdulillah not a word of it was said cos we exactly knew how to handle everything when things go wrong . Moral of the story , couples out there kalau gdh2 pun jgn lerr ckp word break . I know it's irrresistable once u say fuck u here , fuck u there and start to blurt out the word break . Simply get a hang of it . U just gotta learn to do so , cos if it repeatedly happens , it might be unhealthy for ur rltnshp :( Every problem must have a solution to it . So nothing is impossible :)
There i go again , i was being random . Just typing out whatever comes out from my head so if u dont like what i say , then im sorry cos im not born in this world to please u .

Weekend was spent with families and Ariff too ! The boy whom i wanna make as my 2nd boifren =D
For the 1st time i felt there's someone else thats so attached to me other than bbylove . He doesnt want anyone else except for me to carry him around , bringing him go walk2 . Not even his mom . And when im busy making-up , he'll sit down quietly looking up at me for me to finish and carry him . Till my auntie say to him ' ehk , dekni mak kau ehk? ' And till people were asking ' is this ur child? ' . NOW , the BEST part . I gave him milk , i gave him food , i put him to sleep , i played peek a boo with him and END UP , i got vomitted by him . Thanks eh syg . haha .

Isnt miko cute !! I know , just like the owner . haha

K da , bye .

i love my pumpkin !

2010-09-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

Pictures credits to Een . ♥

Isn't my bubu cute ?? Like bf like gf . . Suke puji diri sendiri . Haha . Last night , bubu&friends went to Royston's bthday . && if only I didn't decline bby's offer in asking me to tag along :((
Bahaha .
Azrul syg , imysm ! But i know YOU miss me MOREEE ! ahahaha .

my hair is growing longer ..wee-huu!!

2010-09-21T20:34:00.003+08:00

Sorry people . But I wont be blogging until there's something to talk about . The only thing I'll post from now , are picturessss . . wokie .
Love got a haircut beforehand , so I got one too . Lol .

HAHA . Dont mind my auntie here . Lols .

I SWEAR I LOVE ARIFF ! Isnt he CUTE ?! I know , just like me ;D

I LOVE IT WHEN BIE2 TENDS TO EAT ALOT !
I love it when we're on a ride after eating together , i'll pinch3 his babat . Haha . Iloike !

PS; I LOVE YOU ALOT CINTAKU AZRUL ! =DD

stooopid !

2010-09-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

wth . I think there's something wrong with this blog -.-

tating btol luhhhhh . pfft .

wee-huu !

2010-09-09T20:25:00.001+08:00

TUESDAY

Met up with love , lepak at pasir ris , home .

WEDNESDAY

Despite the rain , plan to meet up with love still goes on . Accompany love to buy bike stuff then help to polish up the pipe under love's void deck . Back to pasir ris buy food for potek , then home .

Today , THURSDAY

Sch was fun ! For today only . As usual was supposed to do revision . . but me , my chi and indian friend lek one corner , started to have convos bout bfs&bike . lol . Personally shared stories bout our own bfs attitude and bike accidents . . etc . After sch , met up with love yet again . How happy can I be seeing my boo all the time . <33
As always , lepak at psr rs , then back home .

Tomorrow , cant wait to get DUIT raye !! HAHAHAHA . And bbylove will get the stomach fat . Huhu . . syirah suker ! =DD
**
Last but not least , SELAMAT HARI RAYE PEOPLE ! I know sometimes , my mouth just shoot out unwanted words before thinking . . sape2 tersinggung , maseh ade perasaan dendam , syirah mntk maaf byk2 .
Have fun tomorrow okay people ! ;)

f*** exam . im in raye mode .

2010-09-06T20:07:00.000+08:00

Today nothing much . Met bbyboi . . go here & there find stuff . Then go motor shop meet up with potek . . bla3 , then lepak at tamp . Then back home . Then the rain comes pouring down . Lol . So syiok . How I wish I could sleep . But syirah busy studying . Wee . . .azrul's goodgirl . Huahua .
& now , waiting for Dada<3 to come down and we'll study together .
3more days siaaaa . wuhuuuuu ^^

OMG im SOOO in LOVE !

2010-09-03T21:07:00.000+08:00

Too many pictures , now . . i'll talk .

Firstly , I wanna thank my syg for a splendid week . Thanks alot ye dear . Bangun pagi2 . . pergi sane , pergi sini . Been meeting azrul every single day , from the sun rise . . till the moon comes up . Im happy cos you're always by my side showering me with so much love&care despite a few small fights that we got into .
Love love love riding at night . Huahua . How we get sesat . . till I almost wanted to cry because I fear of . . . . . . and bby will start laughing disturbing me , ' kental pe u ' . I know , asshole . With the weather freaking cold , bby will start riding slow knowing Im in cold . Aww . . so thoughtful . LOL .
& bbylove pulak gonna go geylang tomorrow with friends & probably will be meeting him instead after he got back .

Secondly , exams coming up and Im freaking stressss . Bahhh . Tried to study . . really . Thanks to azrul , I become real semangat . But it's f-ing frustrating when I cant get the answers right . Seriously , that's the only thing which can make me go crazy .

Thirdly , next week raye !! Weeeee~ HOW TIME FLIES . I still remember spending time with bie2 boi on the 1st day of puase , & now . . puase is gonna be over within days . lols .

Okey ppl .
Have a great weekend ;)

l.o.v.e is irresistable .

2010-09-02T20:31:00.001+08:00

See how gendut I've become ? Hahas . I swear this yr ramadhan is going very fast . Mane tak , lpak2 smpai pagi with bbylove , alek tdo smpai ptg . See , I've become more like baybeee . p-e-m-a-l-a-s .
=p
oh ppl , check this out .

HAHAHA !
XP

i dont need my bantal busuk if im sleeping wf u love.

2010-09-01T21:32:00.000+08:00

Had so much fun with love the past few days going everywhere .
Pictures .

Pls dont mind our masai face .

Pictures of last night , will be posted tomorrow .

tonight .

2010-08-29T19:53:00.001+08:00

Last night , planned was to watch movie with bie2&the friends .

But standard , plan plan tapi tak menjadi . Guys la katekann .

Soo , planned was to lepak at 12am instead .

Plan cock up , decided to meet at 1am instead .

Cock-up lagy !!

Haha . But I did get to see bby when he went for a ride behind my block .

&cant wait to meet ltr .

Weeee . . missing you lots la baybeee ! =DD

Besok sch ! -.-

Boring~

t-o-m-o-r-r-o-w

2010-08-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

LIKE FINALLY . . picturesss .

&finally , we're gonna reach the digit 3 ! wuhuuu !!
ily bacin !

2010-08-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

Been meeting love after he end work and finally , had supper again together after quite a period of time =D

Now , missing him alot alrdy . Bahh .

& to be honest , Ive been very lazy to update blog !

Next update , pictures wokay :)

it feels different when you're not sleeping with us.

2010-08-19T09:53:00.000+08:00

Sorry dear blog for not updating .

& mawnink to all the wonderful people .

Thankfully due to the YOG , got 2wks break . And Im just on the right track in revising for exams which is within a month from now . See , I so rajin =P Hopefully , allah is planning something better for me , for us , for everyone whose facing problems after problems .

Been going to&fro to CGH then now SGH . Bulan puase ni . . standard , tekak haos je tengok si cine2 minum air :(

Hais . . hopefully by raye , he'll be back home . Insyallah .

falling.deeply.love.

2010-08-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Hellooo people :)
Been trying to be rajin siket by updating blog . Hehh .

SYIRAH rindu AZRUL soooooo much alrdy !!

Really man . Kissing dancing hugging in the rain . . that's normal right .

There's more of it that can done in the rain . Huahua .

Oh well nehmind . Phm2 understand what im trying to say .

Malas nak elaborate . Cos I just feel like today's awesome ! .

Had a lil jealousy argue with love regarding kenangan silam . Lols .

Well partly because of the place we went to .

First day puase , I think it's going great .

Though Im looking forward to the day I can start fasting .

Not much to say peeps , except . . I MISS AZRUL !!

Haha . . tawu , korang da jelak dgr kan :P

Tomorrow.

2010-08-10T20:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Fasting To ALL the Muslims :))

Bie2 boi , the time will come .

Bear with it .

I want it to be world wide with everyone knowing bout it .

Then im sure by the time ,

both of us has achieved what we've really wanted all these while :)

I loveyou sayang .

spending all my time loving you .

2010-08-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

BOO !

Yesterday morning , went TA . Go home , eat3 then sleep all the way till 6+pm . Thankfully , bie2 just woke up too . Both had our shower . . then azrul go out lpak , i went dinner with family at dwntwn . Txt3 , decided to meet up after he went riding with the friends . I swear it has been soooo long since we had our MIDNIGHT DATE ! Lpak , share stories , share problems then go home almost to 6am . Stay awake for awhile , watch tv , eat . . 10+ am sleep till 5+pm . Haha . Boring perr . & now , lagi bored cos azrul lupe nak bawak fon gi work ! i know , dier memang pandai skali kan . haha my legong BF !! tsk . Lucky he txt2 me using my cousin's fon . Tapi tetap i tgh rindu u sngt2 ni bie2 ! grr .

To bubu , whatever that happens , i wont leave u alone ok .

I'll always be there as much as u've always been there for me too when im facing problems .

As i've said , dont take too heart at whatever shits i say when im angry .

ILOVEYOU BIE , always bby .

:)

2010-08-06T20:16:00.000+08:00

Sorry dear blog , Ive left u unattended for a week plus .

Days has been chaotic I tell u . Day after day . Not regarding love life . But sch life , family problems . Thankfully , love have been by my side making me feel better .

Been meeting dear almost everyday , which makes my days a whole lot happier despite problems at home .

And with my closest friend facing problems , it affects me alot too . I really2 cant stand seeing people cry . When she broke dwn , my eyes starts watery alrdy -.-

SOME guys ehk , really uh . GOOD FOR NOTHING ! pandai nak org berubah when actually the problems lies within u assholes ! A girl like her , ketip satu jari sepuluh dtg . If u cant accept her for who she is , other guys can ok . Just ur luck that she still choose u but its ur lost cos u blew it away . Arghhh ! JERKS ! pfft .

So today , nth much . National day celebration was quite a bore . But attendance nyer pasal , terpakse laa pergi . Bie2 boi fetch , lepak at tamp with the friends , then home sweet homeeee .

I guess , not much to say for now . Pictures will be uploaded if I use lappy .

Takecare people . Have a fun weekend ! :))

may we never be apart.

2010-07-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

Helloo people .

=DD

Bie2 asked me if I could follow watch them play soccer today at midnight after he end work but sadly I cant .

Soryy love . I wish I could . But under some circumstances , u&i know why kan :(

I miss looking up in the moon with u and searching for the stars .

I miss when we lepak-ing with ur friends at the playground beside northpark . . u'll be lying on the slide , cuddling me while I listen to ur heartbeat .

I miss eating supper with u while watching movies through ur iphone .

There's so many things that I MISS . & I know u do too .

We'll do it together again okie love .

Sadly , unavailable to be together on our anniversary but thats ok . Many more anniversaries to go . Hahs . Futhermore , dear have been fetching me to&fro to sch the day before that . Had soo much fun . But I bet bie2 is super tiiired . Going here&there , then go hsptl somemore . But see , the sacrifices a guy went through for the gf . . that , I appreciate it alot . Went in class almost one hour late , but thanks to my nice classmate , she never put me late at all . I dont want any more warning letters to be sent to my letterbox -.-

This is what happens after so long never met . Never fails to spotcheck my hp .

Told ya , imma gdgerl bby . Where got time contact laki laen -.-

you're the reason why..

2010-07-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

Happy 29months LOVE .

YOU&MEforever&ever&ever&ever&ever&ever..........

I wanna last with you as much as you want me to .

F*** all those fights we've been in before ,

cos from what I know , what I see , what I felt . .

you&me will stick together no matter what .

Thanks bie , for evrythng .

You're really gd in handling my attitude :)

Mwahhhh !

ILOVEYOU .

imy !

2010-07-25T19:56:00.001+08:00

BOO !

haha .

i swear i got nth to do right now :(

bahaha .

after so many things that happen , im missing love alot already now .

his text msges makes me laugh like a mad gerl today^^

i loveyou loveyou loveyou bubu ! :))

2010-07-23T21:31:00.001+08:00

Hello people . !

Last week+this week , so many things going on . That's why have been rather busy to attend this blog .
Those who were there for me , thnx for listening , thnx for the advices . Really appreciated it alot .

Taken few days back .
Camwhoring with Dada<3 .
More pictures = FB .

Then , there was NISA NOCHA who fetch me from sch . Sweetkan ! I know .
haha . *melts .
<3

last but not least , the one im madly in love with .
my favourite partner , lover , bestfriend , brother .
my ONE&ONLY
my FOREVER&ALWAYS ,
& thats my dear Azrul .
my love for you can never stop growing bie2 .

I know things are getting worst right ? Be strong kae love . I akan sentiase mendoakan yg terbaik untk u sekeluarge .
You know i'll always be there for u kan2 :)
See you soon cinta .
**
Have a fun weekend beloved people .

2010-07-22T21:25:00.001+08:00

I LOVE AZRUL .
3words but with alot of meaning in it .
Only he knows what i truly means even if sometimes . . .
Only he knows whats happening between us bcos . . .
Only he knows if i mean what im saying now as . . .
Only he know if whatever i speak out is the truth for . . .
Only u understand . . you azrul . You know what i meant .

2010-07-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

Im soo pissed !! Terlalu pissed sangat till idk why am i pissed in the 1st place -.-

I wanna go back indonesia . Back to the mountains up high , so beautiful so peace where i can shout and scream out loud . I cant help bottle up this feelings . Even when Ive shared&tell everythng to him , I feel like Im back to square one =S

Loveyou boo..

2010-07-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

~~As far as Im concerned . . Ive tried to be the best . I know Ive done enough .~~

~~The rest lies on YOU . !~~

~~Cos u've been doing nth except shaking your legs !!~~

~~Im done with this .~~

~~It's all up to YOU if YOU wanna play your part !~~

2010-07-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

Azrul , Azrul , AZRUL , AZRULLLLLLL !!! Do you know I MISS YOU SOOOOOO MUCHHH ????

:( I MISS BF ALOT .!

Orang terdekat je tawu the reason why ehh . Hais . Takpe . Ni namernyer kesabaran , lols .

Walaupun jaoh , tapi dkt dihati . Hahaha .

To be honest , I LOVE SCH SCHEDULE , but not me&love meet-up schedule .

Sch always start late , end early . . all due to some tornament or something happening in the sch .

Tapi bie ! When nak meet ? Ya allah . Can get sick man missing him .

I wish mom will recover fast&get home asap so I can visit her when she's at home . Hais .

As we get older , the more challenging our problems are . Even if you run away from it , the problem will still come again . Not now , but later some day . What to do , face it , get it over&done with .

Keep sighing alot lately&bubu knows why ! Hehh . Sorry for being sucha wth gf . I cant help it , i winduuu youuu sayangku :(((

2010-07-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

As I look back on all that's happened . . growing up , growing together . There were times when we dreamed together , when we laughed and cried together . As I look back on those days , I realize how much I truly miss you and how much I truly love you and how much us means alot to me . The past may be gone forever . . and whatever the future holds , our today makes the memories of tomorrow.

I love you , Azrul bin Othman .

Specially for the ladies out there ;

The guy you love today,

May not be the same person the day after .

I know sometimes you just wish to turn back the time

and feel those moments where you had real fun with your bf .

How much you miss those times .

How much you miss the old you&him .

But do you demand that he stay

consistently the same day in&day out throughout the years ?

Seasons come and seasons go ,

Flowers bloom and flowers wither ,

yet you can learn to appreciate them all .

Do you love him enough

to let him grow&change just as you grow&change too ?

May you learn to love the guy you love ,

accept&adapt to the changes

at each stage of his life .

Don't whine ,

don't complain .

Who knows God has planned a better future

for you&him .
Insyallah , amin .

2010-07-08T21:15:00.001+08:00

It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye,

it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry.

It`s funny how forever never really seems to last,

it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past.

It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down,

it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around.

It`s funny how people change and think they`re so much better,

it`s funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter".

It`s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,

it`s funny how one night can contain so much regret.

It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be

but the funniest part of all, none of that`s funny to me.
**
Sorry old friend i stole this from your blog .
Cos i want someone close whom i knew of in the same state to read this and hopefully it'll give her a wakeup call .

I really don't understand you guys at all. Seriously speaking. If you are in a relationship, please don't ever say that you wanna get to know me more and blah3. Like wth. Your girlfriend is there waiting for you to text her and go on a date with her. Why must you lie to me that you are fucking single. Seriously, you can go and die. I hate LIARS. ASSHOLE much. And you can have the cheek of yours to tell me that you are single and your relationship status : In a relationship was just a fake? You can really really really really GO AND DIE.

Bbygerl , im not in the position to tell u whats right and wrong for u .
I just want u to be happy okay .
If u can endure with it , then just be patient with everything k .
Just hope he'll change for the better .

2010-07-06T21:19:00.001+08:00

I know you're strong . Everyone's worried .

There are so many people standing by your side

and many people around you waiting for you to get fully recover ,

waiting for you to laugh out loud , makes jokes etc .

And if you have really3 fully recover , i'll bring durians for you okay .

Please get well soon , mummy :'(

Hais . I hate looking at azrul in this state .

Pls allah , give my dear azrul strength to face this .
**
When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry , show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile .